Preparation

This time I am not in a mess,but I am the mess!Too much to handle and too much to figure at once.Conflicting thoughts crowd me all the time and worries. Worrying about being fair,but worrying about caring on the other hand and wanting to take the plunge but then again not being able to fight my fear.I am weak,very very weak,I love my safe cosy corner,pulling myself out of it is an impossible task for me!The hurt will remain,the guilt that I was the reason for the hurt will be a burden with me forever!What I wonder is that will anyone realize who I have hurt the most? maybe not! In this world people don't see it unless shown and people wont see.The answer to this question therefore will remain a mystery!