Memoirs of a foolish girl...

The most stupid girl was she. I mean,gullible,dumb,dimwitted,anything and everything that could enhance her stupidity,but people loved her,she very effortlessly brought vibrance along with her and occasionally showed streaks of intelligence,which to others seemed to be very contradictory to her usual self.


Now,this girl was untouched by love and all its lesser synonyms-crush,infatuation and so on. Her friends all around her were falling in 'love' fast and falling out of 'love' faster.She kept a safe distance.


She hated him! So much of arrogance,pride....she would argue with him everyday.Her desired peaceful evenings at the club turned into a battlefield with the boy around.She was taken aback when she realized she was conversing,yes conversing and not fighting with him.They never realized when and how friendship slipped in. He appeared to be more witty and humorous than arrogant or proud.


She said NO! She didn't love him. The boy's confession of love for her,received a polite no. Initially she asked him to stop kidding,"don't joke about love at least" she would say.But that day when he looked into her eyes so sharp,the honesty pricked her disbelief,but her answer still, was a polite no.She couldn't stop feeling sad for him,at times it would be anger on her incapability to love him back.He would always make her feel special,would call her oddly average features pretty and those longing eyes...it seemed she was living her love through his,although the conscious brain was unaware,but the heart knew,the heart always knows...

That cruel laughter immersed her muffled sobs......................................

"I was kidding" he said,"you are so stupid,its so easy to fool you,and you believed me blindly!" He was loud and clear,boasting about his victory,but she couldn't hear a word,that laughter seemed to have deafened her,numbed her!She was hurt,humiliated and horrified. She wanted that moment to flee,erase....but her wishes hardly came true.The awareness traveled from the sub-conscious brain to the realm of consciousness,and a pain pierced deep into her heart,and embedded itself forever.


Love did touch her,but she never knew that touch would be a scar,that scar which never allowed her to fall in love again.......